We're Marching On

I didn't realise there was a reason for the way you are.

Now, having been with you for now, two weeks of intense closeness,

I can fully accept you for who you are, there is a reason for everything you do, I reason why you are full of so much hate, a reason why you see the world in this light. There is a reason for this.

And you take everything I say to heart, and you'll help me when I'm upset like no one else can.

You make me happy. That's the end of the story. I understand you. You understand me.

Exactly.

We are so more alike than I could ever ask for.

No one else is like this.

Not one person.

And all the people that complain about you and how you are,

those are the parts I love most about you.

I love it.

Every bit.

Everything about you makes me want to hold your heart close forever.

Because, You are special to me, and always will be.

I value you, you are worthy, and you mean the world to me.

Your my best friend, even if I'm not yours.

xox

'For those days we felt like a mistake
Those times when love's what you hate
Somehow.. we keep marching on
For those nights when I couldn't be there
I've made it harder to know that you know
that somehow.. we'll keep movin on

There's so many wars, we've, fought
There's so many things, we're, not
But with what we have, I promise you that
We're marching on, we're marching on, we're marching on'

I Made It

I'm used to this. Used to seeing you act like I'm never there. Seeing me when you want something. I see you take away my dream, I hear you tell me all about it. You even ask me for advice on what to do when things go wrong. I was the original, I was the one who was supposed to live this dream, but I am nothing, as nothing as was she, as nothing as can you be. I feel as though I live alone, I live alone and talk to no one. I live alone.

But one day, I will be living my dream, and you sure as hell won't be a part of it.

But for now, I will be you're bitch, do what you want, because when I don't all hell will break loose.

And I love you, I really do, but you don't realise how much potential you have to hurt me. And I pretend that this is all ok.

'I look up to the sky
And now the World is mine
Ive known it all my life
I made it, I made it!
I used to dream about, the life I'm living now
I know that theres no doubt.
I made it, I made it!'

The Moon Can Weep

I saw it once.

I love you more than the stars themselves

and i'm sure

that if the moon could weep

diamonds would fall from the sky

only because i know

you love me too ♥

'ob-la-di ob-la-daaa, Life goes on'

It Will Sing Of You

THIS WORLD ISN'T FAIR.

Nothing is fair.

Why can't I help somebody. All of them, I want to tell them it's all going to be ok.

I want to find the cure,

I want to be the one to fix the world.

To fix us,

to fix us all.

I wish I could give everything I have to help you,

but it won't help,

because there is no cure for this.

There is nothing I can do.

'So while the sky melts and bleeds colors, shifting as it does, we become enlightened in a million different ways. And with eyes open we watch the shooting stars stream back from the ends of the earth, carrying with them the moon. Pulled by wishes on strings it floats in the sky while trains whistle melodies across cornfields and cities. And it shines amidst the darkness, flanked by a thousand points of light, whispering to the world verses of comfort and assurance, saying “There is a song the universe sings, with a hundred different words and a handful of stanzas. And none of it is in a language you’d understand. But you may rest easy in knowledge that after the melody dies away, there will still be something. Still, a song will remain. And it will sing of you.'

Always On My Mind

I have black hair, blue eyes, and I'm not going to Timbuktu.

I have brown hair and orange eyes, and I'm not going to China.

I have red heir and brown eyes, and I'm not going to Ireland.

I have no hair, I have an infection, and I'm going home.

I have no hair, a have a smile on my face and I'm going to the hospital.

I have no hair, I have a smile on my face, and I'm in intensive care.

I have three strands of hair. No smile on my face, and I'm not here.

I have two parents, 1 brother, and I have a disease that killed me.

My name is Dylan,

And it has been 5 years.

And I still miss every body back down there.

I was 11.

And I miss those times we spent together, I miss hanging out and laughing at you when James showed me the stupid things you wrote in your wardrobe.

I miss you too Dylan.

'Maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have
Little things I should have said & done
I just never took the time

But you were always on my mind
You were always on my mind'

Today Will Be Ok

Hey all you people out there.

Every one of you.

Today's going to be a great day.

Wake up, look at the rain, but on some gumboots, take an umbrella, disguise your high heels and walk around. Go to the park.

Go sit on the swings.

Smile.

Let an ice cream melt and let it drip bewtween your fingers, let it hit the ground.

And Laugh.

And smile again.

Because your life is good.

Your life is worth living.

Bu when you think otherwise,

I begin to doubt your strength.

I thought you were strong,

but as late, more and mroe you have needed to prop yourself on my shoulder.

I'm holding you up,

but I'm starting to crumble, not visibly crumble, but I'm still crumbling.

You think I'm strong, but I'm exactly the same as you.

Like waning moons we met,

and like waning moons we exist, so that at one point we will turn around and become full again for now.

But some day soon this will all end.

The pain you feel,

I try to promise you, but the way you carry on,

the way you complain to me about it, but don't do anything about it,

the way you break,

the way you glue back together,

the way you hurt,

it's all you, and him, and her.

It's all of them.

I am going to crawl into my hole, forget everything and start fresh.

I wan to.

This is my chance, coming up.

No one has to know Emily.

They can know the Emily that I used to know, The one where everything was all ok.

It makes it doesn't it.

It makes it all.

Keep your vinyl spinning, if the soundtrack of your life stops spinning, everything seems stupid and pointless.

Song to dance to today - Rock that body (B.E.P.)

SOng to make you feel good - Friend to a stranger (Emerson Hart)

Song if you're mourning today - Happy Alone (Earlimart)

Song if you're upset today - A song about suicide ( Sarah Jade)

A song if you're happy - Let me take your photo (The speedies)

A song to make you think - The Last something that meant anything (Something Corporate)

And a song that will make you smile - Let's dance to Joy division - (The wombats)

Today will be ok.

Today is a new day,

today is a day where you can lie on the grass and look at the sky for 15 minutes and you will realise the insignificance of it all.

Of everything.

Of it all.

It's all ok.

That I can promise.

'So, from a friend to a stranger
How's your life
In your current situation
Wish you happiness and freedom
And I wish you life
When you reach your destination,
Your destination'

Better Off Alone

I know that when you set that, that you have moced on. You have moved on from me. You say you still care, that you still want to help, but really you have just got sick of me, you want to rub it in my face. By telling me 'that's not what I do, I've had enough of it.' and then doing it with someone else. And when you turn your back on me, and stop relying on me as someone to talk to, and stop seein gme as someone real, stop seeing my pain as real pain, that's when you hurt me the most. You don't realise that you're hurting me, and yet somehow people turn it round and think I'm hurting you. The last thing I want to do in this world is hurt you.

I don't ever want to hurt you. I don't ever want to hurt anyone. How could you even think, that after everything you've done for me, that I would turn my back on you.

But that's what you have done to me.
And now I feel as though we are mere acquaintances.

And longer do you say hi when you walk past

and no longer do you sya can we chat later?

It's like.

Hi Emily.

How was your day.

Ok I have to do work now.

I'll talk later.

I thought you were the last person I could rely on.

Now I have no one.

And maybe that's better then you, you having everyone, but none of them are real.

And maybe, maybe the thing is, I'm better off alone.

I tell my self that.

But it still hurts

I see that she something in you now, you have inspired her, and though I tell you how much she isn't really worth it, you still SEE something no one else does.

And I just want you to know, I'm still here, even if you don't see me.

And I do care, just not as much,

because you stopped caring about me.

When you stop caring it leaves a scar, and I knew that one blank place left inside was for you, but you scarred it, and now I don't have a single place left unscarred from peoplehurting me and letting me down.

I'm better off alone.

'I’ll be coming home
Just to be alone
Cause I know you’re not there
And I know that you don’t care
I can hardly wait to leave this place

No matter how hard I try
You’re never satisfied
This is not a home
I think I’m better off alone
You always disappear
Even when you’re here
This is not my home
I think I’m better off alone
Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a home'

I paid it!

Transaction status Accepted - Thank you Transaction date and time Mon 05 Apr 2010 11:47AM (NZ Time) Infringement Notice Number N8713596 Name on Infringement Notice Emily Webster Amount paid to New Zealand Police NZ $100.00 Westpac convenience fee NZ $3.00 This fee appears as a separate transaction on your credit card statement TOTAL PAYMENT MADE NZ $103.00 Card type Visa Credit card number ref. 494310xxxxxxx019 Cardholder name E P Webster Merchant Name New Zealand Police Merchant Address PO Box 3017, Wellington, New Zealand Transaction number 389813504