This Is It What You Wanted To Know All Along

I guess I do it because I'm scared.

I'm scared of the truth, of what my life consists of. Or doesn't consist of.

I'm sorry I did it.

I am.

I'm sorry it made you doubt me, and I'm sorry you can't trust me.

But behind it all, I'm still here.

I'm still Me.

Although none of my life is really real. In my head I need something to cover who I am. Becuase I'm scared of being neglected, I'm scared of being me. SO I create something that I can see as a montage inside my head. Of how my life should be. BUt it's not like that. Bar you guys.

And a couple of people back home.

I just want to protect myself from people I guess.

I'm scaredto trust anyone, and I don't want anyone to trust me.

Lone rider.

I guess.

And I know by doing it, I have no friends,

but that's ok. I guess.

I have myself.

And the confusing mess that is my head.

And yeah I want friends,

that are friends.

But I'm not that sort of person.

The one that is just outgoing, extrovert, amazing.

I'm withdrawn and kind of introvert.

that's ok by me,

but just not by the standards of everyone else.

This is ok.

I am ok.

I understand if none of you really want to talk to me again.

I get it.

But I still want to be there.

And just.

Do everything.

Be everything.

I'm a CL.

I know that.

But take it or leave it.

You never have to believe me.

I guess I just don't want anyone to know the truth.

I love you all too much.

You mena the world to me.

I want to be different, happy, and just normal.

It's hard to change.

We all know that.

'Better run for cover
You're a hurricane full of lies
And the way you're heading
No one's getting out alive

So do us all a favor
Would you find somebody else to blame
'Cause your words are like bullets and I'm the way your weapons aim

Yes
I can feel the burn with things that I don't know about you baby
You're not misunderstood but you got
You got to go

(Lies)
Living in a fantasy
(Lies)
Don't even know reality
(Lies)
When you start talking I start walking
(Lies)
Lies
Lies
Lies

Don't even wanna know the truth
(Lies)
The devil has his eye on you girl
(Lies)
When you start talking I start walking
(Lies)
Lies
Lies
Lies

So don't forget your seatbelt
Don't you think of picking up the phone
Better say your prayers 'cause you're never gonna make it home

Did you miss the stop sign
That last decision was your last
'Cause you can't come back once you're lying in the broken glass

And I hold
You get to here me say, "Who gets the last laugh now"

(Lies)
Living in a fantasy
(Lies)
Don't even know reality
(Lies)
When you start talking I start walking
(Lies)
Lies
Lies
Lies

Don't even wanna know the truth
(Lies)
The devil has his eye on you girl
(Lies)
When you start talking I start walking
(Lies)
Lies
Lies
Lies

No more excuses
No more running
Only God can save you now
(God can save you now)
'Cause I know the truth
Time is running out

And I'm just one drink away
And I'm back in Wonderland like it was yesterday
And you get to hear me say, "Who gets the last"
"Who gets the last"
"Who gets the last laugh now"

(Lies)
Living in a fantasy
(Lies)
Don't even know reality
(Lies)
When you start talking I start walking
(Lies)
Lies
Lies
Lies

Don't even wanna know the truth
(Lies)
The devil has his eye on you girl
(Lies)
When you start talking I start walking
(Lies)
Lies
Lies
Lies

Woah
Oh
Oh
Lies
Lies
Lies

Woah
Oh
Oh
Lies
Lies
Lies

Woah
Oh
Oh
Lies
Lies
Lies

Woah
Oh
Oh
Lies
Lies
Lies'