Look What I've Done

I know I made a mistake. By letting everything get too much and by freaking out.

It's all been inside for so long and I justed wanted someone to know exactly how I felt.

I knew it was suicide from the start.

I know who I live with,

I know what they're like.

They're teenage girls like me, they're not forgiving.

I knew when I did it I was never going to be forgiven.

I went crazy. Everything that I've been keeping deep down inside just came up and I couldn't handle myself.

I knew I couldn't handle myself.

I just wanted someone to save me from myself.

I ALWAYS do this.

I get a friend who cares I GET A FRIEND WHO CARES then I freak out that they're going to let me go so I do it.

I do the hurtful deed,

but I don't want to lose them.

I did it last time and I've done it again.

Everything just became too much.

I have to go.

I have to get out.

I always hurt myself and other people.

Because I don't want this,

seriously I don't.

I just get overwhelmed and now

it's like being on an ever dropping fearfall.

I'm scared that she won't talk to me ever again. I knew at the start that she wouldn't.

I just didn't know it could hurt this much.

I know now when they say that breaking up with a friend hurts more than breaking up with a boyfriend it's true.

It's almost like losing a brother.

But at least when you lose a brother your friends are there.

When you lose your friends you've got no one.

And it's all your fault.

How come I knew this was coming.

Stupid insecure me.

Stupid fucking crazy me.

Me who wants to change but doesn't know how.

Stupid fucking mental insane me who just wants a normal life where she doesn't fuck it all up

where her friends care more than she does where she finds solace.

I guess I knew all along that 17 year old girls could never handle it.

They couldn't handle me, i

m just too fucking craaaazy bithc.

I get it.

I'm meant to have no friends.

It's just hard to accept that fact I guess.

Cause I miss her already.

I miss her.

Fuck why do I always fuck it up.

Fuck me.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so so so so so sorry.

I just wish you would listen to me this once and hear what I have to say.

'Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone'