I Was Content With Loneliness

I'd like reconcile with you.

But I can't.

Because you don't want it.

You don't want me anymore.

It's okay.

I tell myself that.

We had a good friendship while it lasted.

And I miss it already,

but you don't want me.

And you send me that

through your eyes.

I know I'm different

But the least you could have done is accepted me.

And you didn't.

And now I'm alone.

And you have everything you ever wanted.

And that hurts me more than losing you.

That you took everything I had

and claimed it as your own,

and then stole it.

I had it.

Everything.

You've taken it away.

I need you to see that I miss you for a day

and that I want the old one back.

And I want to stop putting myself out there

when you hate me like you do.

Because I know what you're like.

And what you say about me hurts.

So please.

Either remember me and smile,

or forget I exist and leave it at that.

Because that might be easier for both of us.

but it's just to let you know I miss you.

'Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness'