I wonder if I run every red light.

And hold my breath for that second too long.

and j-walk everytime I cross the road,

if anything will ever happen.

Because I feel so angry right now,

that I want it to happen.

I want people to understand the pain they're causing me.

It is physical pain that actually aches.

It is aching bad.

I just need t let it all out,

but I'm sick of letting it out on people.

I need to let it out on things, on objects, on sand, on the table,

on that discarded tea cosy.

On anything.

I could kill you with my bare hands.

I could

but I won't

because I love you too much.

But I shouldn't love you should I.

I shouldn't even like you.

I shouldn't even care about you.

I should let you have your own time to you and you friends,

and leave me alone.

I AM JUST SO ANGRY.

This isn't going to go away with a snap of your fingers.

I know you laugh at me when I'm not around.

I know you make jokes about me

I know you like me when I'm there and hate on me when I'm not.

So just leave me alone.

stop it.

I'm seriously sick of it.

If I could I would dig a hole and bury myself.

Just end it.

thats what I want ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGh.

I need to get out this is painful